For the past couple months, I’ve been seeing a therapist. I was in a bad place and knew therapy would be a beneficial choice. I found someone rather quickly and started my sessions right away. But I quickly realized it may not be a good fit for me.
I’ve been doing a lot of reading on Taoism and I’m practicing a more laid back, go-with-the-flow approach to life. Instead of letting the ego run wild, overthinking every choice I make, I go with my gut and trust that everything will go exactly as it’s meant to.
My gut told me I should look for other therapy options. This therapist was friendly and talkative, however I wasn’t getting what I wanted out of my sessions. So today, I let them down easy. I’ve never broken up with someone… what do I do now?
In all seriousness though, as anxious as I was to cut ties, the relief I had after the fact was blissful. I knew it wasn’t benefitting me, but it was still frightening to send that text saying I want to look elsewhere. It plays into my desire to hold close relationships with the people I meet and not do things that may jeopardize that, but sometimes you have to do the tough thing.
With therapy, I know this is common practice, just like with relationships. You can’t expect to find the one right away. You test the waters, meet new people, see the potential, and pursue it or don’t. I shouldn’t feel guilty for my feelings or grasp at strings because I don’t want to hurt their feelings. In the end, it’s my time, money, and mental health at stake.
So what I’m getting at is trust your gut. Listen to the Tao and don’t let your ego get in the way. If something doesn’t feel right to you, it’s probably a sign to move on. Don’t ignore it. Be respectful of other people’s time and emotions though if someone else is involved.
Don’t take things so seriously or overthink every decision you make. Your body is pretty smart, so when your subconcious is sending signals, listen. Don’t stay in an unwanted place if it’s not benefitting you. Follow your intuition and trust the flow of the universe.
August 10, 2024
