Don’t confuse my indifference for anything other than it is.
My lack of care for where we eat is not anger.
Silence and concise speech is not aloofness, passivity, or aggression.
My responses to the world are those of a Stoic-in-training. It’s not that I don’t care about anything or anyone, it’s that I’m indifferent to many things.
There are a lot of thoughts and ideas weaving through my mind every day. I constantly think about the future of ETT, building a coffee venture, finding balance between work and life, what I just learned while reading, etc. So when you ask what I want to eat and I say “I don’t care.”, it’s because it’s not even close to the forefront of my thought processes.
I feel a strong sense of focus in my life. I believe my vision for my future is clear. The steps I take each day build the foundation my future self needs to succeed. So I write blogs, post on Tik Tok, interview creatives, and paint. Those activities are my focus. Other externalities are not.
The other day, I was writing blogs while someone was working on the floors in our house. He said to me “I’m gonna have to make some noise, sorry.” I responded with “I don’t care.” and I genuinely didn’t. My attention was on writing. Letting noise get in the way of that wasn’t going to happen.
I know what I want to focus on in my life. I know what tasks need to be completed and procedures need to be followed. My thoughts revolve around these focal points and anything outside it doesn’t really interrupt my flow.
So if I come off as curt, uncaring, or whatever else, know that’s not my intent – I simply have a lot on my mind.
Find your focal points and let the rest of the world fall to the periphery.
April 18, 2022
