As I go through the five stages of grief, I have begun looking to the Universe to send me signs. Is this crazy? Pointless? Or could it be exactly what this crazy kid needs in?
First, a little context. A movie my college group often mentions is John Dies at the End (very weird, but highly recommend). In the movie the explain time as an ocean, not linear, but happening all at once. They also talk about synchronicities – like when you start reading a new book and someone at the grocery store mentions the author to their friend as you pass by.
You’ve likely noticed similar events like this in your own life – seeing your model car all over, thinking of someone and they call or text, constantly seeing the same number throughout the day… sure, some of it is a bias, we tend to see things we know and are focused on, but some occurrences are a little more odd.
If you’ve read some of my recent blogs, you’ll know I’m struggling a little bit with loneliness. I think I’m getting better, but then I get slapped across the face with anxiety and negative thoughts. At this point, I just want to be on the other side of the feelings. I want to be whole and happy again, but I know to get there, I have to traverse these feelings and learn my lessons.
Yesterday on my walk, I had the impulse to request the guidance of the Universe. I asked for signs to lead me down the correct path. I said, if I should do X, show me the number 333, if I should do Y, show me 678. Eventually, I saw 678. I then said give me a clear duration of time at which point I should act. I played some music and the song told me 6 months. Finally I said if I am to wait 6 months to do Y, show me 479. Later that night I saw and Instagram post with that exact amount of likes.
As much as I want to go against the Universe, I think I’ve been ignoring the other signs I’ve been given, and yesterday just solidifies the fact that I have to start trusting the flow of life.
I do believe the Universe guides you where you need to go if you choose to let go and listen, so that’s what I’m going to do. Of course I’m still not where I want to be, but yesterday gave me a little bit of hope and makes me feel more clear about what I have to do. Maybe you think this is all just random coincidence, but for me, it feels right.
I think whether you believe in the Universal flow or not, we can all benefit from letting go and trusting the process. When we try to force things, they don’t often go well. Sometimes all it takes is faith, patience, and letting Nature run its course.
Ask the Universe for help. Do it as a joke if you want, but see what it wants to tell you.
September 12, 2024
