Sometimes it happens slowly, other times quickly. You live your life day by day, then all of a sudden, you wake up and you’re exactly where you never wanted to be.
From the moment I started Expedition To Try, I swore I’d never slip into the mundane. No matter what, I’d fight off the routine I see all around me – the 9-5 job, the exhaustion that leads to sitting on my phone for hours, choosing TV over something productive, waiting for the weekend, and making poor health decisions.
But then I woke up on another Monday morning and realized that’s exactly where I am. I’m fuckin’ 27 years old. This can’t happen this early.
For the past few months that’s been my life. I’m up before the sun, exhausted and dreading the day, I work till 2, go to the gym, go home, and do nothing. That’s the routine until Friday night when I go out and drink enough to where I regret my decisions Saturday and waste my one day off because I’m too hungover to do anything productive.
My self awareness is fighting back now, which is why I’m starting to write again. I realize something needs to change because if it doesn’t, I’ll be stuck here. I have goals and a vision for what I’d like my life to look like, but none of that will happen if I keep doing this.
If you feel stuck, listen to your gut. Take a few deep breaths and see what your body is telling you to do. If where you are isn’t where you want to be, you can’t continue doing the shit you’ve been doing.
Do something different today and again tomorrow. Start small and build slowly. Don’t accept a mediocre life if that’s not what you desire.
August 12, 2024
